Adversities Can Make You Stronger If You Use Them As Motivation...

On October 18th, I celebrate my birthday. I don't know where the years have gone but I can tell you that I am much closer to the big 30 than ever and life is getting better and better by the day!

So far I have not done much compare to other successful people my age, but I think I've done well for someone who came to the United States alone at twenty years old. I had a rough start in the United States. And I mean rough! I came from rarely spending a night outside of parents' home (except during summer time. I was always by my Grandparents, most of the time with mom or dad anyway) to moving in with a family member, related to me on both sides (my mom and dad side), where I ended up paying for a family feud that existed before I was even born. One man fathers kids with two aunts, one on each side (mom & dad); although I love both aunts very dearly, I am closer to one for many reasons: I spent ALL my summers with her; she visited us often and was the one taking care of mom when she was in her darkest moments. Unfortunately I ended up on he other side and I was caught in the middle of a nasty family feud that had nothing to do with me; I was forced to choose sides, refused and it ended up UGLY! I paid a HIGH price emotionally! (More details in my book. Coming out someday when I write it or if anyone is interested in reading it).

Long story short, my problems didn't stop there. I moved around on an island where I knew no one, but I had those angels who were placed right on my path, right when I needed them. I couldn't believe that someone had the nerve to do what she did to me. But looking back today, what she did motivated me to do better and better everyday, despite coming here with a clear vision and goals. I cried about it. I cried about being betrayed by own blood but I moved on. 

I moved around some more, got myself into a little bit more trouble but worked my way up to where I am today. I NEVER did anything that I won't be proud to tell anyone about. Although I chose not to move closer to uncle, auntie and cousins in NY, they supported me in their own ways. I also have awesome family members! But before I reached where I am today, I worked in a Deli making Sandwiches and cashiering. This job was mostly important because I needed to learn the difference between a nickel and a dime and gain some experience in something in order to get anywhere. Then, I worked at Walgreens as a cashier and from there I went up. 

Before Walgreens, I remember my struggle with my Godmother who wanted me to work at a fast food restaurant doing "whatever" because I was a "Just Come". I told her "No. I have potential. I came here speaking English, I am going to look for other things that I think are more appropriate with what I will want to do. Restaurants, cooking, cleaning etc... are REALLY not my things. I am not Chef potential. (I also had my work permit by that time too!)..." That's when the fights started! "When you all come from haiti like that with a little diploma, thinking you all that etc..." she said. I never knew she was so close-minded and backward. I never said these jobs were "low" as she put it. They were just not my field. I had a plans. I started INUQUA and BIWI in Haiti and I intended to achieve what I started. When she realized that I didn't need her to take care of things like a baby, (and I wasn'tt a fan of her idol, Aristide and couldn't stand listening to Piman Bouk all day talking BS on the radio like she did), things got worst... All for the better! I laughed at it then, I still laugh at it now!

All of these events happened so fast! Before I knew it, I was in College! Yes, I put myself to College as a full time student while working full time. I ended opting for Online classes and I don't regret it. If I have to do it all over again, I will. It was just a perfect fit and just what I needed! I earned a BA in Business Administration with a Minor in Accounting/Finance at American InterContinental University (AIU) and proudly graduated in 2009. One of my proudest moments! I can't wait to go for a Master's Degree, but I am taking my time. I have to choose wisely.

Although, more adversities came later, but nothing close to what I went through before. One day I will share my experience with other people, such as my "sister in law", a Jersey girl! or Maybe I'll talk about that in that book that I dream of writing someday. Will anyone be interested in reading it? TBD!

I am in a good place in my life right now. And I am getting better by the day! No lie! What would I be without all of these adversities? I probably would have gotten so comfortable in my cousin's or godmother's house that I probably would never try to move out. I probably would never put myself to College. Yes, Ms. Sallie Mae is harassing me now, but it's all worth it! And if I, a foreigner can do it, you can too! Don't let your troubles keep you down or behind. Use them as motivation and you'll see how fast things will get moving forward!

"Obstacles can't stop you. Problems can't stop you. Most of all other people can't stop you. Only you can stop you". Jeffrey Gitomer

Shut Up! Take Your Compliment And Shove it!

An hour ago, I was at a convenience store getting couple of items, while I was inside, my phone rang and I started speaking in Creole with a friend I haven't heard in a while. As I was speaking, this man who was standing behind the counter was staring at me. As I was speaking on the phone, he was trying to get my attention by asking me SLOWLY "Miss, h.o.w. d.o.  y.o.u. s.a.y.  I.  l.o.v.e.  y.o.u.", of course I ignored him, since I was still on the phone. He asked again. "Why do you want to know", I asked. "Well, I wanted to tell you I love you". He proceeded to say "Buh, Miss! How come you smart! You coulda fool me", 
 "Excuse me, what do you mean?"
"Well, in farty years (he means forty), first time I meet a smat (smart) hation (Haitian)"
"Go s...", I wanted to tell him to go suck a nut, but I retain myself.
 "Maybe you should get out more, get off island a little bit. See the world before making your conclusions. As far as I know, Haitians are some of the most intelligent people on this earth. Because some just arrive here and don't speak your language yet, doesn't mean Haitians are stupid."
"Well, miss, I been arong de worl (around the world), I was in de aaamy (army), I been to Santo Domingo..."
"Santo Domingo is not Haiti. Anyway..." and I went about my business. The store owner told me "tell him again. Ignorant people like him need to know". But I didn't think it was necessary to continue because I was losing my cool.

These kind of comments are so common on St Thomas and the thing is, they expect you, the Haitian to say "Thank you". No. you're being disrespectful with your backhanded compliments! When will people realize that these kind of comments are not OK? Just because you make that one exception doesn't mean I will agree with you that all other Haitians, except me, are stupid! this is pure ignorance! I do regret not telling him something REALLY bad but at the same time, I am proud of myself for having self-control.

I should be used to these comments by now, I have been getting them since I moved here over four years ago. When I started dating the person I am still with right now, some family members had an issue with the fact that I was Haitian. When they learn to know me, one of them still had issues with Haitians "except me". She would introduce me to people and add "She is Haitian BUT she is smart. Yeah, very smart girl" but then she would ask me things like "How come ahyou Haitians so dark, mehson!" Or "Why dem people so stchupid! They can't even fill out a western union form and their names so hard to say and dey so retarted dey wouldn't wait for it. Then, I have to be calling stchupid names..." Right in my face. Me, the Haitian.

Then, there was the suspicion that I was with him for a green card! When they learned I had a green card before I even moved here, his cousin boldly asked me to show it to him Of course I asked him to get the *** out of my face, but how disrespectful is that?! And these are black, island people who are always ready to cry RACISM for any little thing or even a look from a white person.


I won't even go over everything I have heard from co-workers and other random ignorant people on the streets of St. Thomas. That same "in-law" person once said "there are no light-skinned Haitians". One day I was watching videos of T-Vice, CaRiMi, she swore I was lying about them being Haitians... One co-worker once told me "you're the first pretty Haitian I've met. I thought all Haitians were ugly". I again told him to get out more because "I'm far from being the prettiest Haitian out there" (really)! When my reaction was the total opposite of what he expected, he was puzzled. Seriously, when you have those kind of retarded, ignorant comments, keep them to yourself. Any Haitian in his/her right mind will NOT say thank you to your "compliment".

So far the worst behaviors and comments I have gotten have been from Black, Caribbean people. I have worked with people who automatically assumed I didn't know anything, that I was stupid etc... Coworkers got very hostile toward me because I'm Haitian and I  was getting higher salary then them. Some said it in my face, especially at that clinic where I was employed for almost a year in the administrative department. I had to work extra hard to prove myself. I was attacked, I was promised "a good beating" by immature pricks, all for no reason! I was only guilty of being Haitian and getting a higher salary, which I deserved!

Needless to say that Haitians who can't speak English and defend themselves like I can go through hell everyday at work. People who look like them but just happen to be more fortunate and speak another language put them through hell and do them some injustice.

I am so tired of this crap!  The same way you feel when you think you are a victim of racism, is the same way I feel when you discriminate against Haitians. You all need to stop it and stop it now! It's not pretty to be ignorant!

Why Does No One Cares To Protect Them?

How do you feel watching this video? The U.N men walking around with huge guns but never care to go to camps and other areas where they are needed to protect these defenseless women and children, why? Why does this young girl have to be in the streets getting raped? This is outrageous! If the U.N.is not there to protect the people, who/what are they protecting? Why are they there?

Where Are The Jobs?

I have not posted anything on this blog for the simple fact that I was hoping to have something different, something cheery to post about. But I searched, I looked and found nothing. So, I guess I will blog what's on my mind.

We all know that it's been height months since the January 12 earthquake and nothing - ABSOLUTELY NOTHING - has changed. People are still under sheets and tarps; millions in donations, the rubble is not cleared, the reconstruction has not yet started; many fancy meetings later between the "big people" who own the country, nothing concrete yet. I am a hundred percent positive that ten years later, we'll still be talking about the same things. I have no doubts.

The thing that has been bugging me for a while now is the job situation in Haiti. One would think that right now there would be no shortage of jobs for not only qualified Haitian professionals, but any Haitian willing and able to work in Haiti with all of these projects, work waiting to be done... But reality is, young people are applying for jobs but they are not getting hired. Despite presenting all the letters, resumés, qualifications, not even interview! This is so discouraging and infuriating! Especially when some of them are posting links on social media about how they have job openings and looking for applicants, but in reality, it's not true. They are not hiring. They simply have to go through the procedure of posting them.

I personally contacted an organization about a job posting they tweeted months ago. First, I called and spoke with a lady in the HR department. She asked me to email her my cousin's resume, who is very qualified for the job and has the experience required. I immediately called him and he emailed his resume, diplomas, letters and filled out the application online. The lady emailed me saying that she was very pleased with what she saw so far, and will give his application "special consideration" but first he had to show that he is a Christian and is involved in his church by providing a letter from his pastor, since the organization is a Christian organization and one of the requirements was that the applicant must be able to "spread the good news of God" as part of his work. My cousin who happens to be very involved in his church immediately got the letter and waited for the interview. He waited, and waited... We were so confident that he would at least get the interview that was promised to him. But it never happened! I tweeted them, I sent messages... At first, during a phone call, she said "don't worry, we will be calling applicants soon. He is THE FIRST applicant and meets all the requirements. He'll definitely get interviewed". I believed her. But when that email or phone call never came, I contacted her again via email, twitter, no answer. And then the organization simply unfollowed me on twitter and stopped answering any of my emails.

Months later, I checked their website, I saw new openings. I told two people that I know would meet the requirements, they applied but never even got a call. My cousin later got a job with MSF . Last time I spoke to him, he was still with them. I am not sure if he still has the job now, but really hope that he does.

All of this is to show that MANY organizations claiming that they are hiring but can't find qualified people in Haiti, are simply full of it. There is no reason for so many young men and women to be actively looking and applying for jobs but are not even given a chance of an interview. In the mean time, school is about to open in Haiti, everyone has someone who must go to school but has no resources, no money and so far, has no clue what to do or how it will happen. Most schools in Haiti are private, with exorbitant tuition fees and no regulations. They set their own prices when they want and however they want.

I am not going to blame the NGOs for not providing jobs because they are not there to fix anything; they would run out of business if they do. They are there to keep Haiti on foreign aid. This is why they exist; this is why they were created; this is how they make their money and receive praise and glory. I blame those useless leaders who are selling the country piece by piece to anyone with a green dollar. I blame the "President" for not setting any kind of rules on those organizations, demanding that they employ a number of Haitians in order to be established in Haiti. In the meantime, aid workers from some organizations are splurging money they receive to help the people on Dominican prostitutes in Petion Ville, new cars, fancy houses, restaurants, bars, while, just blocks away from them, the people they are supposed to be helping are dying for basic needs.

Remembering my Summer... Part 1

As soon as school is out, we are all going to Plaisance! But first, mom had to go downtown to buy some "allonge" to get my hair braided for the entire 3 months. This hairdo usually takes all day or two days to be done! It use to be torture, but my short hair needed it so I could enjoy my vacation and so it could grow a little bit during the summer (Or so they used to tell me!).

My dad usually coordinated the trip. A truck full of people and usually a trip to remember! Guerda, Nounouche, Laurana, Ti Garry, Yves-Lyre, auntie Madan Oreste, mom, Magda and the list goes on! Our first stop was in Montrouis. We stopped to get Griyo, bannann Peze, lambi for the adults (I couldn't taste the lambi because my dad said it makes girls "hot"), dad got his usual Pwason Gwo Sèl... Montrouis was it! We then drove for hours. And I mean hours! We passed St. Marc, L'Esther, Gonaives but rarely stopped in any of these towns. We sang, we slept, we stopped for "bathroom" breaks or to stretch our legs. Not to forget a flat tire here and there. By the time we get to Morn Marmelade, our next stop, it was night time. Late night. But Lydia, this lady who lived there and sold food in a little shack, would always wake up just for us, if she was already in bed. By that time we were all tired and hungry again. Lydia would sell us some good food. Her goat meat was usually so good!

After eating, and doing other "business" at morn Marmelade, we headed down to Plaisance. Within an hour, we would reach Bourg Plaisance. That's the "town" but we had to keep driving inside, on some very very rocky roads. We had cross many "pass dlo", rivers before we get to Kafou Roger, where my uncle Tisson, who was a voodoo priest and a businessman and his family lived. We HAPPILY greeted them, got some groceries and drove about twenty more minutes to get to "Dlo de woch". Our driving stopped there because we had to walk to my grandmother's house. By that time, it would be late and peach dark! This is truly country. From 6PM, it's dark; there was absolutely no electricity in that area. The only light we could see were fireflies!

I would be so scared on that small little road that leaded to Grandma's. Not only it was dark, despite having multiple flashlights, we would fall. After it rained the width of the road would reduce to almost nothing. As a matter of fact, one time, Nano, my cousin's boyfriend and Ti Garry fell and roll down in the bushes. A tree stopped them from going inside the "Basin Figue", the only "basin" that no one swam in, except a Mambo (voodoo priestess) named Ti St. Anne when she has "Loa". Because the "loas" she served live in that basin. (RIP to nano, Nounouche, mycousin/his girlfriend and Ti garry, my cousin who I miss so much!)

When we finally reach Grandma's we would be exhausted but so happy! We would start talking with the "Plaisance" accent right away and asking for all kind of things in the middle of the night! At that time, there were no Digicel phone service, like they have now. So, unless we found someone days before we go to let them know we are coming, it would be a total surprise to them. Grandpa would get up to greet us with his huge smile. He was a smooth old guy, always with his cane and his hat. Auntie Yonne would go dig for some fresh yam off the ground, cut some bananas, and some good "Pwason chech" (Dried fishes) up in the "Galata" (attic) to cook for us. All of that done with a small lamp "Tèt gridap". While the food was being cooked, we went to clean up a little bit. To clean up we had to go down a rocky road closed to the house at a water stream. There was no fancy bathroom or anything. But that's what vacation was about! Showering in "basins", like "Basin Fafaron" (the basins were those fresh water pools, all natural, with water coming from a water fall, through the rocks or from nowhere), eating freash yams, bananas, catching crabs, fishes from the basins, playing at night with each other or simply sitting while grandpa told us stories in the dark. These were the best time of my childhood!

To be continued.....

Wyclef Jean: The Authentic Haitian

More than three hours after the famous list was made public by the CEP, I am still amazed about how much Mr. Wyclef Jean was able to make the entire world watch, write and follow the "election" process of Haiti! This is particularly amazing for me because until the earthquake of January 12th, many didn't know who was Haiti's President. As a matter of fact, I didn't know or hear anything when Preval, Haiti's current president was elected.

When the rumors started flying around about Wyclef's candidacy, I knew I would support him because I was one of those people who used to say "Wyclef for President" way before the earthquake even happened. Then all of these articles about money and Yéle started to surface. It would hurt to read them, because Wyclef is my joy, pride and role model. He is that guy who came from nothing to being Wyclef Jean that the entire world knows and talks about. Once I realized that the people who were the quickest to call him a thief were some who are also cashing in in the name of Haiti and "bigging" up themselves for "saving Haiti" without seeing any result; when I look at how Wyclef's NGO was the only one run by a Haitian getting donations and international media attention, that they believe should have gone to them; when I read his explanation, when I remember that he started Yéle with his OWN money, I forgave him, hoped nothing else surfaced and supported him 100%. I refuse to be one of those self-destructive Haitians who joined voices with others to swing mud at him. You may not support the man, but it made no sense to tarnish his reputation for every little petty things. He is not a saint. But he probably was the cleanest candidate on the list!

Wyclef didn't win tonight. But I believe history was made. I will be able to tell my children that in 2010, Wyclef Jean made the entire globe talk about Haiti's elections and shed light on how dirty and unfair the process is. He energized the youth in Haiti, had the diaspora fired up and ready to go vote, and showed the "intellectuals" that they are miserable failures, since they have been there for decades and have managed to make everything worse. The January 12th earthquake has proven that Haiti's so called "intellectual" class are failures and they no longer belong in the leadership team of the country. They failed to make any kind of impression after the earthquake and seven months later, Millions - if not Billions later, they still fail to regulate the organizations who flooded the country and demand them to employ Haitians to get them back up on their feet instead of waiting on a hand to come feed them.

Wyclef's short run also helped many struggling writers, contributors and ex-celebrities get back on the limelight. They all came out of nowhere and all of a sudden, they had this "deep love and interest" in Haiti. When it comes to SOME of those "contributors" and "journalists', I am sure their work in Haiti is already over and will be on the first plane to wherever the next juicy story is. Their sole purpose for being in Haiti or writing refurbished articles about Wyclef was to get attention and twitter followers. Haiti's elections would not be so talked about if Wyclef was not a candidate. I hope they'd prove me wrong, but I am positive that I will not see one article about Haiti's elections until they are over. Unless, of course, Wyclef decides to keep the heat on, somehow. I am not sure how he can do that but I know he can.

I am sure Wyclef can still help the youth of Haiti stay focus, energized, calm and inspired to do good. Wyclef is still powerful enough to do just about everything he wanted to do as a president. One thing that I am hoping he will focus on is creating jobs for these young men who believe in him so much. Although, THEY only see them as weed-smokers and rejects, I believe they can be used efficiently for the betterment of themselves and Haiti. Jobs, jobs, jobs! Put them to work because "an idle mind/hand is the devil's playground". keep them busy, give them a way to earn a paycheck and we will see a change in our people and country. This will not happen overnight and I am not naive to think that they will all give up certain ways that they acquired over the years of misery they were subjected to, but we have to give hope and take a chance on them. When they catch a boat to other islands, or even to DR, they contribute greatly to the economy, pay taxes etc... So, I believe it is possible to change the image that we all have of the youth of Haiti. Wyclef could be that role model; that someone they will listen to, look up to and the one who can bring jobs to Haiti even if he is not President.

After recovering from tonight's deception, I am hoping that Wyclef will continue to represent, and work for Haiti. Continue to be the subject of my pride and make my heart swells every time you take the stage to either perform or talk on behalf of the voiceless.

Stay true to yourself, generous, kind and the beautiful person that you are. You are an authentic Haitian, like my dad told me yesterday on the phone.

May God continue to Bless You beyond measure! I was called an "ignorant" for supporting you, but I will definitely support you again should you decide to run in 2015.

Wyclef Running For President of Haiti: Keeping An Open Mind

For the past week or two, the web has been buzzing about Wyclef Jean running for President. Personally, I was one of those who said "Wyclef for President" even before the earthquake. But after the earthquake so many articles surfaced about Yelé's books not being correct and him paying his mistress thousands of dollars from Yéle's money. It made me sad to read these articles because I love Wyclef. He is our pride and represents his country around the world! So, it's hard to accept that he would PURPOSELY waste money donated for his people . I still do NOT believe that he would splurge on a mistress with Yéle's money. My opinion. I want to give him the benefit of the doubt.

What I do find strange is how everyone is interested in how Yéle spends its money. I don't disagree with that. BUT why don't I see the same interest in other organizations that used Haiti to collect millions? Especially organizations that grew like mushrooms after January 12, 2010. Yéle existed BEFORE January 12. While I may agree that it's far from being a perfect organization when it comes to how its money is pent, at least I know it was not created because the earthquake looked like an opportunity to its creators. How about the other big organizations that received most of the MILLIONS donated by using pictures of our people suffering, crushed under concrete? If there was the same outrage, and articles about their books, maybe they would actually use those funds on what they received them for.

It's just strange that the ONE organization run by a Haitian that gets some media attention ,gets it for all the wrong reasons! Something is not right with that! When watching reports on Haiti or reading articles from the media giants, you would think that no Haitian is helping, while there are organizations run by Haitians that are doing what they can to help, with very little financial help. They get NO media time because there is no "smoking gun" information to put about them on the internet and no one knows them. It would not be juicy enough. Yéle gets all the attention, but for all the wrong reasons. Makes me wonder....

Now the big news is that Wyclef MAY run for president of Haiti in the next elections. So far they are rumors and people are freaking out already. Why? Some say he is not qualified enough. He doesn't have any political background. Some others say he doesn't speak French or he doesn't speak Creole enough (he is not Haitian enough like Oabama was not Black enough). Some say 'popularity doesn't mean qualification to be a leader" but even in the USA, running for office is about popularity (why didn't McCain win? He clearly had more experience). I even saw a tweet saying he is too ugly.

I understand why some may say he is not politically qualified for the job. But, for as long as I can remember, Haiti has had very politically qualified leaders, but look at where we are today. Even before the earthquake, Haiti was already a mess where money just vanished, the president doesn't care about the people, food prices skyrocket, everyone fix their own prices in any currency that pleases them, parents could not afford to pay their children tuition etc... Parents were giving away their children before the earthquake because they could not afford to raise them. All of this was happening with "politically qualified" people in power. And the earthquake just showed all of us that it's not about diplomas, and which language you speak to do good. Unfortunately, just about all of the heavy politically educated "leaders" of Haiti survived and look at where the people are six months later? Still under sheets, tents with babies, and they are not even able to provide security to them. Women, young girls, as young as 5 years old are getting raped; they are not even smart enough to demand all of the organizations to provide jobs to young Haitians even those with multiple degrees! Proof that diplomas don't make a man patriotic. Once they get paid, they don't care about the population.

Some others are panicking because Wyclef, so far, has shown some signs that he cares about the "little ones". And that won't work for SOME, should he become President. Since he was raised in the United States, he may want to set some standards for workers, for example, or even listen to the people when they talk to him (which never happens in Haiti). Some Haitians WANT Haiti to stay in limbo, so they can be in business and don't pay any taxes, pay less then minimum wage etc... A President who is listening to the people, grew up in the USA and might start doing things the normal way can be panicking to some.

Personally, I don't care that he doesn't have any political background. I think if he surrounds himself with new people, not those who are already there, he MIGHT do well. I think, if Wyclef runs and becomes President of Haiti and remembers how a real country should look like, he can rebuild and restart tourism again. By restarting tourism, jobs will be created for the people and they will start taking care of themselves, instead of begging, risking their lives catching boats to other places or go get lynched in the Dominican Republic. That's just one of the good things I can see coming out of this. So far, NO PRESIDENT has seen the potential of Haiti being a destination for tourists again. They are too busy begging and filling their pockets.

I am not sure how I feel about a potential run of Wyclef for President right now, but i am not against it. I am open to it. If he runs and presents plans that look like they may work for the betterment of Haiti, I'm all for it. Because I am tired of those beggars who have done nothing but making us look like fools to the world. All they have done is thieving and squeezing everything out of the population, selling the country piece by piece to whoever wants some. Next week, we will all know if he will run and if he does, I can't wait to see what he has to offer. Everyone makes mistakes; no one's perfect. If his plans sounds right to me, besides the fact that he is not some broke man who just wants the highest paying position in Haiti, he has my vote.